As My World Seems to Turn Lately...

Well, I made it thru another birthday. Last Saturday night my friends took myself and another friend (whose birthday was last Sat. -- we always do our birthdays together) to dinner at this really cool restaurant that is above BB King's club on Beale Street here in Memphis. I have been before and it is incredible. Following that, we went for cocktails at Mollie Fontaine's Lounge, one of my faves... Later that evening, a friend called me and wanted to know if I wanted to know if I wanted to go dancing. I did and met a really cool and hot guy. Long story short... cool, hot guy, who I will call Cowboy went home with me. WOW. This was a really huge deal for me for several reasons. First, it did WONDERS for my self-esteem. It made me realize that there is at least a slim to midlin chance that someone I am really, really attracted to can be attracted to me back. It is still hard to believe that this guy left with me when he could have had any guy there. Another reason that this happened is it was a reaction to a friend moving that I have feelings for. I haven't told a lot of people this, but there is a huge amount of hurt involved with him leaving - on my part. This move is good for him and I don't begrudge him any happiness at all. But it has left a huge void in my life that cowboy walked right into and temporarily filled. And it was completely worth it to feel that way and have the hurt be taken away, even if for one night. I didn't look for this to happen, but it did and there it is. And unfortunately, not all of my friends have really understood it, but that is their deal -- not mine. But anyway... I would LOVE it if something more comes from it, but if it doesn't, it doesn't. That one night was special enough for a lifetime. But he did give me his number and said he definitely wanted to get together again. I would love nothing more, but I'm not getting my hopes if it doesn't.



On another note, I had what might be called a "semi-date" last night. I met this guy and we met for coffee. This guy was really nice. He didn't rock my world, but he seemed normal, as in "not a freak", which is a huge deal considering some of the people I have met this year. We talked for about an hour and he seems like a sweet guy. His background is a lot like mine and his parents don't know that he is gay, we both did the church thing, etc. We have agreed to see each other again. I don't know if anything will ever come of if or if we will just have a friendship. Even if it is only a friendship, I think this guy would be a good friend. It will be interesting to see where this goes... I will provide an update later...I'll see what trouble I can stir up this weekend...



A friend just emailed me this joke... forgive me if you have heard it before, but it still makes me laugh...

"Hello?"

Hi honey. This is Daddy. Is Mommy near the phone?"

"No, Daddy. She's upstairs in the bedroom with Uncle Paul."

After a brief pause,

Daddy says, "But honey, you haven't got an Uncle Paul."

"Oh yes I do, and he's upstairs in the room with Mommy, right now."

Brief Pause.

"Uh, okay then, this is what I want you to do. Put the phone down
on the table, run upstairs And knock on the bedroom door and shout to
Mommy,That Daddy's car just pulled into the driveway

"Okay, Daddy, Just a minute."

A few minutes later The little girl comes back to the phone.

"I did it, Daddy."



"And what happened, honey?" He asked.

"Well, Mommy got all scared, jumped out of bed with no clothes on
and ran around screaming.

Then she tripped over the rug, hit her head on the dresser and now
she isn't moving at all!"

"Oh my God!!! What about your Uncle Paul?"

"He jumped out of the bed with no clothes on, too.

He was all scared and he jumped out of the back window and into the
swimming pool. But I guess he didn't know that you took out the
water last week to clean it.
He hit the bottom of the pool and I think he's dead."

Long Pause

Longer Pause

Even Longer Pause

Then Daddy says,

"Swimming pool? ............

Is this 486-5731?"

No, I think you have the wrong number.......